There is so much bad going on right now that I couldn't believe HOW HAPPY I got hearing and seeing the ICE CREAM TRUCK (music and all!) driving down my street, where I was sitting outside on the grass next to the curb. I was trying to catch a break from very heavy emotions. I don't want to talk about that right now, BUT the kids coming outside to buy ice cream were everything! I haven't seen an ice cream truck since I was a little girl. It just really made me happy! And then really good memories, but with a twist, which I probably need to talk about. Right now, I'd rather think about the good stuff. LOOK at the Ice Cream Truck video!!!
I moved into this apartment about 4 months ago, and the best thing ever is that this entire summer I've kept all my windows open and get to hear all the little kids play outside, all day and every day. I love it so much. It's just really healing and brings me a lot of good things. There is also grief and sadness to this, remembering my little girl playing outside. He took her at age 6-1/2. However, hang on, because as I'm writing this, the sadness and grief is NOT about remembering her playing outside (those were all very great and precious memories). BUT INSTEAD, the sadness comes from remembering her teeny tiny squeaky extremely little innocent voice, THOSE children have who play outside my window. God, everything - every good memory is matched with a bad momory.
Also, I only live minutes away from a college campus and whatever these awesome college kids are doing with all their football stadium games and college spirit celebrations and just being outside and around just brings me so much... joy... such good memories and I think how they are in such a special time in their lives.
